Several years ago, I was visiting my best friend from high school whom I had not seen in about 40 years. Out of the blue she asked me a question that almost knocked me off my chair. “Why have you never married and had children? You always seemed so normal.” What???? So because I do not fit in your box of what is normal. I, therefore, am not? It got worse later on when she found out I was in ministerial school. She was appalled because “women cannot be ministers.” Of course, I did not tell her about the rest of me – she might have had a heart attack!!
I have lived most of my life trying to figure out how to squeeze the big circle of me – the precious, warm, sweet loving being of me – into the little square box of who you want me, or need me, to be. The circle of me is so much more than what you see. It is not what I am doing; it is who I am being. I have dreams, passions, beliefs, ideas, and goals, as most people do, but they may or may not fit into the little box of who I am “supposed to be.”
However, my passions and dreams, all I aspire to be, do fit within the circle of my wholeness and the Divine Idea of me. My circle includes the good, the bad, and the ugly – all of me. It is my past my present, and my future and it does not fit, cannot fit, into your box.
Are you being you? Or are you doing what you believe you are “expected” to do? Sometimes they are the same and that is way cool. However, if there is a fire burning within you to be more and do more, go for it. Jump out of their box, and into your circle of your wholeness. Join me in recognizing and accepting the Divine Idea of your beingness. Who are you? What are you here to do?
Carol Davis (Changeless Change, p. 63)